Friday, November 03, 2006

Having heard these lines from our priest during a Sunday mass (a month ago), I immediately saved it in my archives..why? Simply because I believed in what he said. I believed in it. But I guess time goes by and there will come a point that I will have to think my judgments over (and im glad I did). It’s not that I don’t believe in those three things anymore, it’s just that I would like to add one more…and that is trust. Its one thing that I believe is hard to achieve, hard to gain. But once a person gets it from another, it’s like having been given the chance to hold that person’s life, depending on the gravity of course.

Honestly, I don’t know if I can still give out that kind of trust ever again…but I am looking forward to meeting that one person whom I am positive deserves it…or should I even look far? Who knows? Maybe that same person I have deprived of this treasure might be the one who deserves it after all. We’ll see. But at this point, all I can say is that it would be really hard for me to be open to those sorts of things again…years to wait maybe…I don’t know. For now, I want to rest and gather myself again, once more. I am not deprived of special people around me anyway. I lost a big part of me, yes. It had been weeks before I got to open it up here, yes. But the time being on my side, at least, is a good sign that I would be able to heal myself, and be a better person to the one whom I can be honest, comfortable, confident, and stupid with.

“Curiosity kills the cat”

I have never trusted my instinct, even though it always tells me to believe in it all the time even during exams. But the last time I did so, it brought to me the best feeling I have ever felt in my entire college life. Just then I realized that I really do have to trust my instincts, and now I trust in it more than any other thing in my life besides God. Hehe! Now there’s my newest and bestest bestfriend….