Friday, March 16, 2007
*this was the song my blockmates surprised me with over a serenade by the DLSU chorale last Feb 14... Loved it!!! ^._ ^ Thanks again guys...
Your Song
Elton John
It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 4:43 AM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
for two and a half weeks, there was:
No net, therefore no checking of email, no ym, no friendster, no downloading and uploading.
No landline.
No cable tv.
No channel 5, therefore no PBA.
No ipod charger.
No new fone.
No new Pugad Baboy.
On the brighter side:
I got a new flash drive, with a larger memory.
I learned how to get home by myself.
I learned how to cook a few dishes.
I further mastered the art of sleeping.
I was able to get in touch with some of my HS friends.
I was able to get in touch with some of my gradeschool friends.
I was able to watch some of my favorite shows.
I gained a few pounds, hit the 100 mark again!!
I had no exposure from ABS-CBN for two and a half weeks.
Yet:
I found out that I’m suddenly alone and struggling to find someone I can share my sentiments and shallowness to.
I miss my HS friends so much.
My Negro just got lost. I miss him badly.
I was able to watch only one movie in my entire Christmas vacation.
The course card day was definitely so memorable. The morning was tiring and stressful that I almost fainted inside the sickening building in front of a huge and frantic crowd. Yet, we were able to get our NBI clearances plus get registered for the upcoming elections. The afternoon back in school was great..totally an afternoon of gifts..from friends and professors..hehe! And to cap off my cool day, I had a fun yet nerve-wrecking night..well not too nerve-wrecking, but I was slightly scared. Oke…I got scared…haha! Well I guess I just didn’t see that one coming. But I had a great time, and it was a cool and timely experience…sort of celebration?
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 4:35 PM
Friday, November 03, 2006
"The three great things in the world are faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love."
Having heard these lines from our priest during a Sunday mass (a month ago), I immediately saved it in my archives..why? Simply because I believed in what he said. I believed in it. But I guess time goes by and there will come a point that I will have to think my judgments over (and im glad I did). It’s not that I don’t believe in those three things anymore, it’s just that I would like to add one more…and that is
trust. Its one thing that I believe is hard to achieve, hard to gain. But once a person gets it from another, it’s like having been given the chance to hold that person’s life, depending on the gravity of course.
Honestly, I don’t know if I can still give out that kind of trust ever again…but I am looking forward to meeting that one person whom I am positive deserves it…or should I even look far? Who knows? Maybe that same person I have deprived of this treasure might be the one who deserves it after all. We’ll see. But at this point, all I can say is that it would be really hard for me to be open to those sorts of things again…years to wait maybe…I don’t know. For now, I want to rest and gather myself again, once more. I am not deprived of special people around me anyway. I lost a big part of me, yes. It had been weeks before I got to open it up here, yes. But the time being on my side, at least, is a good sign that I would be able to heal myself, and be a better person to the one whom I can be honest, comfortable, confident, and stupid with.
“Curiosity kills the cat”I have never trusted my
instinct, even though it always tells me to believe in it all the time even during exams. But the last time I did so, it brought to me the best feeling I have ever felt in my entire college life. Just then I realized that I really do have to trust my instincts, and now I trust in it more than any other thing in my life besides God. Hehe! Now there’s my newest and bestest bestfriend….
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 3:35 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
ISANG PAGSILIP SA MISEDUKASYON
Kung ihahanay lamang ang edukasyon sa mga pinakanangangailangan ng tulong na sektor ng lipunan sa ating bansa, malamang mangunguna ito. Hindi lang dahil “find your height” ang labanan, kung tutuusin ay halos magsisinliit lamang ang mga sector kabilang ang kalusugan, pero sa kadahilanang ni hindi man lamang nito nakuha ang kailangan nitong atensyon.
Pumili ako ng tatlong pangunahing problema ng edukasyon mula sa dokyumentaryong “MisEdukasyon” na pinapanood sa amin sa klasrum. Una dito ay ang impluwensyang kolonyal ng Amerika. Matatandaan na una nang nagpadala ng mga titser na tinawag na Thomasians, dahil sa barkong sinakyan nila, ang mga Amerikano upang magturo sa mga Pinoy ng Ingles at iba pang kaalaman tulad ng literatura. Ipinakilala nila ang sistemang institusyonalisasyon sa pagtuturo, kung saan hindi lamang sila nagtuturo ng mga siyensya, kundi nagpapahintulot ito upang magbigay ng oriyentasyon sa kamalayan sa pagiging Amerikanisado. Sa pamamagitan nito, mabibigyan ng lehitimo ang Amerikano upang maipakilala ang kanilang pagiging mataas kumpara sa kanilang mga tinuturuan. Malaking problema ito dahil nagiging laganap ngayon ang tinatawag na Neo-Colonialism, o pagtangkilik sa kaisipang kolonyal at pagpanatili nito. Tuloy, ang mga laman ng mga lektura sa eskwela ay pawang nagpapahiwatig sa kanluraning kaisipan at kultura. Hindi man lamang mapagyaman ang wikang Filipino at ang kulturang dapat sana’y naipapamana sa mga kabataan, lalo pa’t maraming naniniwala na kapag marunong magsalita ng Ingles ang isang tao, isa na siyang edukado at respetado, at binabansagan namang “jologs” o baduy ang mga tumatangkilik sa gawa dito sa Pinas. Bukod pa dito, dahilan sa mababang pagtingin ng mga dayuhan sa mga Pilipino at mataas na pagrespeto ng mga kababayan natin sa kanila kahit pa sabihing edukado ang mga tayo, sinasamantala nila ang kahinaan ng mga Pinoy. Halimbawa na lang ay ang pagkuha ng mga mauunlad na bansa ng mga manggagawa mula sa mga Third World na bansa tulad ng Pilipinas para makamura sa pagpapasweldo.
Ang pangalawang suliranin ng edukasyon sa Pilipinas ay ang pagiging komersyalisado ng mga paaralan. Kumapara sa ibang bansa na gobyerno ang mismong nagpapatakbo ng mga eskwela, karamihan sa mga paaralan dito sa atin ay pribado. Dahilan ito upang mahirapan sa pagpili ng mapapasukan ang mga nais magkaroon ng magandang kaledad ng edukasyon dahil sa pagkakaroon ng mga paaralang ito ng kapangyarihan upang magtaas ng matrikula. Tuloy, ang iba ay napipilitang pumasok sa mga pampublikong paaralan kung saan kapalit ng maliit na halaga para makapag-aral ay ang mababang kaledad ng edukasyon. Ang iba naman ay naghahanap na lamang ng trabaho, pero syempre hindi naman maasahang magandang trabaho ang naghihintay para sa kanila. Nagpahayag ang pamunuan ng Commission on Higher Education, o CHED, tungkol sa walang tigil na pagtaas ng matrikula ng mga pribadong paaralan at sinabi nilang “quality education is expensive.” Ibig sabihin, kung nais ng isang estudyante ng magandang edukasyon, at sa kalaunan ay magandang kinabukasan, kinakailangang gumastos muna siya ng malaking halaga ng pera. Ibig din sabihin nito na ipinagdadamot ng pamahalaan ang kaalaman sa mga mahihirap.
Ang huling suliranin na laganap ngayon sa ating bansa ay ang kaisipang elitista. Sa katunayan, ito ang isa sa pangunahing problema ng mga naghahanap ng trabaho. Karamihan kasi sa mga kumpanya ngayon ay tumatanggap lamang ng mga gradweyt ng malalaki at sikat na unibersidad. Kabilang sa mga unibersidad na ito ay ang De La Salle University, University of the Philippines, at Ateneo de Manila University. Kaya naman kung hindi ka nagtapos sa isa sa mga “reputable schools” na nabanggit ay tiyak na mahihirapan ka sa paghahanap ng magandang trabaho. Karugtong na rin ng problemang ito ang pagkakaroon ng maraming aplikante sa limitadong posisyon lamang.
Sa kabila ng lahat ng mga suliraning nabanggit, may mga hakbang naman na ginagawa ang gobyerno upang malutas ang mga ito. Tulad na lamang ng argumento hinggil sa paggamit ng wikang Filipino bilang pangunahing midyum sa pagtuturo sa halip na Ingles. Bukod dito, ipinasa rin ang Education Act of 1982, kung saan kinokontrol ang sunod-sunod na pagtaas ng tuition fee upang hindi mabigla ang mga mag-aaral. Meron din tayong Higher Education Modernization Act, kung saan ang mga unibersidad pang-estado ay nagbebenta ng properties upang tulong sa pagpapaganda ng kanilang pasilidad. Nandyan na rin ang nagsulputang parang kabute na mga call centers kung saan ay malaki ang pasweldo sa mga manggagawa at tumatanggap ang mga kumpanya kahit na ano man ang kurso na tinapos at kung saan man nagtapos. Masasabi rin naman pala nating may pakialam nga ang gobyerno.
Kung itatanong mo kung bakit parang wala pa ring pagbabago sa kabila ng mga binaggit ko sa itaas, narito ang aking opinyon: Naaalala mo ba nang magkaroon ng mainitang pagtalakay tungkol sa usapin sa kung aling wika ang dapat gamitin sa pagtuturo sa mga paaralan? Hindi ba’t lalo lamang nagkawatak-watak ang mga responsable sa usaping ito? Bakit patuloy na nagkakaroon ng mga kilos protesta tungkol sa pagtaas ng singil sa matrikula? Kasi naman, sakaling hindi magtaas ng singil sa matrikula ang ilang paaralan, bumabawi parin ang mga pribadong paaralan sa mga estudyante sa pamamagitan ng pagpataw ng mataas na presyo sa tinatawag na miscellaneous fees. Kaya’t kahit na mababa na ang tuition fee, mataas parin ang suma total ng babayaran ng isang ordinaryong estudyante ng pribadong paaralan dahil sa iba pang dapat bayaran. Bakit may mga paaralang hindi magamit ang mga pasilidad, lalo na ang mga laboratoryo, at may mataas na bilang ng estudyante sa isang silid-aralan na halos umabot na sa isang daang mag-aaral bawat klasrum at titser? Sana alam ko rin ang sagot sa mga tanong na ito.
Sa aking palagay, magiging magandang simula sa sistema ng ating edukasyon ang pagpapalaganap ng kaisipan na magsasabing mahalaga ang wikang Filipino at ang ating kultura. Hindi ko hinihiling na gawing midyum ng pagtuturo ang salitang Filipino, ngunit gawin itong isang mahalagang bahagi ng natututunan sa loob ng eskwela at dapat lamang na pagyamanin pa ito. Magiging malaking tulong din ang pagkakaroon ng mga faculty development programs o mga seminar para sa pagpapalalim ng pwersa ng mga titser upang mas maging makabuluhan ng mainam ang mga itinuturo at paraan ng pagtuturo nila sa kanilang estudyante. Siguro’y sapat muna ang mga ito upang magsimulang bumangon muli ang sistema ng edukasyon sa ating mahal na bansa. Hindi man ito mabilisang paraan, naniniwala naman akong epektibo ito kung maisasagawa ng maayos at tapat.
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 3:40 PM
Saturday, October 21, 2006
My experience during the retreat was worth treasuring. I did not only find time to go back to my inner self and to assess the depth of relationship I have with my friends, but also to God. Honestly, the LASARET taught me how to communicate with Him, and I feel that this is very helpful in terms of my busy schedule. It also opened my eyes into reality, that God is actually everywhere and is only waiting for me to remember to talk to Him. I realized that God is in my friends, in my blockmates whom I now treasure more than before, in my family who never did anything to displease me and always had the best things in mind for me, and most specially I found God in me.
Right now, the block’s relationship grew stronger, and I know and I hope that it would develop to become really ripe enough so that we would be able to value more the gift of true friendship God has offered to us, especially after graduation. I can actually feel God’s presence in all of us, and we are now more vocal with our feelings and everyday reflections towards God. This is true with my family as well. And I am so lucky and blessed to have a solid and God-fearing family who, in spite of so many trials we are encountering right now, never forgets to thank God for the blessings He continuously showers to us and never left each other in times of trouble. Lastly, my encounter with God right now symbolizes my willingness to grow deep inside into a mature person in different aspects. It also gave me strength and helped me find the courage hidden inside of me that I would need to constantly face life’s sweet blessings and the bitterness of the real world.
--this is only a part of my reflection during the LASARET....and this was the first time i ever did an honest reflection...no pretentions or lies. the best part...i did this in not more than 5 mins! haay...
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 2:58 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
got this from a p0st from friendster bulletin. liked it so much. hihi!---
15 signs of liking someone:[.FIFTEEN.] YOU THINK OF ANYEXCUSE JUSTTO TALK TO THEM
[.FOURTEEN.]U LOOK @ THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY
[.THIRTEEN.]:WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP,, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.
[.TWELVE.]:YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
[.ELEVEN.]:YOU WAlK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM
[.TEN.]:YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.
[.NINE.]:WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAMETIME
[.EIGHT.]:YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.
[.SEVEN.]:WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM//HER.
[.SIX.]:YOU START THINKING ABOUT THEM WHEN LISTENING TO SLOW OR SAD SONGS
[.FIVE.]:THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.
[.FOUR.]:YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.
[.THREE.]:YOU REAlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILINGTO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.
[.TWO.]:YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.
[.ONE.]:WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...
cool...hehe. and true? hahaha! gettin' cheezy chong..
but honestly...it is true alright. nakotch! nakotch! chizms itoh! e pano ba naman kasi e...kasi kasi...kasi naman. wala lang. mahirap nah. (hirap ng kalagayan mo...torn?) hihi ^_^
course card day yesterday...turned out good. especially THE THESIS. hehe! pero double the pressure...hay nakotch.
and speaking of thesis...sunog...as in nog-su repapips...grabehan. u should see my poor feet...nasa kabilang pc kc ung pic so i cnt show u yet...but wait for it. harhar. not proud but i find my feet cute though...nyahahah!! next week balik work...nakotch..nog-su despite the spf 70 sunblock...mag work ba nmn daw ng 730am-5pm! nog-su!! nog-su!! hahaha!! tapos tapos kain ulit sa gitna ng dagat ng puny pandesal c/o romsi! (masarap nmn noh kaht
maliit!) kapiling ang mga best friends na
Synapta...nakotch best friends na kmi...face to face ba naman pagsisid mo sa tubig na below knee ang depth...hahaha!!! at maligaw papalayo dahil ambigat namin sa kayak...nyahahah!!! (row row row your boat!!! away from the
Sargassum land...that is. haha!) but at least there's progress...and good progress at that. tuloy tuloy na toh...
miss my highschool friends!!! (jolliberks!!! kirby! frances! nicay! gene! rj! grapes! paramdam!!! grabe...) and all the others as well...angel, special mention: enal!!! recca! nyak! hahah! mr. ChemEng?! partner! nakotch pinagpalit na ata ako...tsktsk. in fairness dkna natawag...busy busy? bali-balita naman dyan!!! yes i know "matanda" nakow...pro sana at least magkita2 naman...khit hnd sa EK...oke lang promise!!! hahahah!!!
and my elementary friends yo
anna!!! and adrian...at ang mga multiply peeps dyan...nakotch. oscarrrr!!! the grouch! nakotch! d man lang tayo nagkita amf. hahah!!! well God bless sa maraming bagay...lovelife, studies, at lovelife..yihiii!!!!!!
ano toh pabati?! hahaha! wala lang...miss ko na cla e. kayo. un un.
----ber months alert!!! ber months alert!!!
if ur in love...i am too.im telling you, it's never too late. but all we have with us are pretentions, if i am righti just hope u feel it too...please do. Dostet darum. Dostet darum.
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 7:51 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
just taking time off from searching meanings of some Afghan words...
"grease is the word, is the word, chuva chu...."
i know nobody would be able to relate....hahaha! i don't even know a single soul from my block who knew that movie (Grease). great. [if u guys are familiar with the Mesmerize video by Ja Rule and Ashanti (am i right?) , the theme is actually taken from the movie im talking about]
"but now there's nowhere to hide...since you pushed my love asaaahide...im out of my head..."
so much for that....
im back!!! its been a really long while....the term's almost done. i can say that this is the best term for me yet. well i guess its always like that....your recent term is your best term (for me at least... =>) im not certain why, but maybe bec i learned new things (like how to make wine and yogurt! or how to do a film "reading" or how to appreciate well the beauty of literature...ah....heheheh...not to mention those Afghan words added in my vocabulary. cool!), i met new people and found out how good it is to cross-enroll (and we're planning to do it again next term...hihi...coz u know, it gives your college+social life diversity..and it's double the fun than concentrating your subjects on your college only all your life...), i was finally able to fix my friendster layout...and liked it, i've overcome my fear of open (and deep) water by being able to swim God-knows how many km was that (we were like chasing our adviser who's underwater at that time and all we have with us were our lifevests and we were left in the middle of the sea), i was forced to refrain from eating too much (lauriats are good only on weekends) so as not to get myself all drowsy while studying or in class, we've discovered our new fav hang-out (Director's Club @ MoA!), etc., etc
next term im super loaded...with bio subjects. God bless. but im looking forward to enjoying the coming term...
had my grad pic yesterday. and yesterday also i realized many things:
- that people do become insensitive at times...worse, these people im talking abt are those that i thought were "educated" (in a way..haha!)
- that im glad to have one of my friends with me...uber glad. Tashakor. i hope u know who u are. hehe
- that no one is entitled to judge someone they never even migled with before (and i wish we'd never be able to, ever. haha!)
- that he can be a good host to my blockmates. (loved it!)
- that some people are bound to dislike seeing ur face. hahaha!
- that i doubly glad to have him with me...and he's not with anyone else. Dostet darum.
"My life was a constant uphill climb
Never got it right
Each one I loved
Went through a change of heart
You came and my world turned upside down
You sung a different tune
Can't let go
It keeps playing on my mind
Now there's a reason
to wake up each day
A reason to shake my blues away
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
I wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank you for your love
Confused, my heart was in a daze
Learned to live with pain
I loved in haste
Then watched it go with waste
You came and brought music to my soul
Inspired me to the very core
You touched me where
No one has been before
Now there's a reason
to wake up each day
I thank the Lord
for sending you my way
Now I am whole, a lucky soul
I wanna thank you for your love
Thank you, thank you for your love
I saw the world in shades
of black and gray
Turning blue w/ every passing day
Just when I thought that maybe all was lost
My life took a new turn
and it's all because, it's because...
No looking back, no more pain
No more dark clouds, no more rain
Thank you, Thank you for your love"
- TY4URLUV, Dimsum
lovelei fell in lo_0ve at 8:51 PM
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